First off, most of those reading this, at least at first will not like what I am writing about and I am expecting some if not most to go further to separate themselves from any presence of mine. I am okay with that, I understand, and I do not blame you. This will not be easy what I am talking about, probably one of the hardest things I have done in my life actually. However, it's time for me to move foreword and to do everything I can possible to try and get out of the hell I am living every day of my life. To live life like someone normal.
This is my story and my struggles with mainly pornography and the things that have happened because of it. This is my last stand, my last effort that I can manage and one I hope will be beneficial to me. To most this news is not new, I recently posted on my social media that I wear a Fight The New Drug, a group against porn in general but also strongly against teenagers in porn with a program that I highly recommend to those fighting this drug, wrist band as a stand that I am attempting to fight the drug of my life. However I need more than that, I rely almost completely on the people I have the ability to care about and I have to do whatever I can for them, well now I'm accountable to them. I am accountable to all of you. I am overcoming this, I am getting my life back.
Now, in this blog I will be blunt, I will be truthful. No lies, no bullshit, I am me and so this is why I say that this will not be for everyone so please understand that and if it is too much then don't read. While that may be a case for some, I know that most people, if not every person that reads this, has problems with one of the many things I will talk about and I hope that this will be a comfort and a strength to you as well as me.
Bravo! And as always, I am behind you 100%. I love you. I'm proud of you! I stand with you in this battle and give a warriors cry. Onward, forward, upward! You have always given me such joy! You are not alone in this. Satan wants you to think you are, but you are not! Get behind me Satan! You are finished! You may win many battles but you will NOT win the war!!
ReplyDeletethanks mom, love you
ReplyDeleteGo for it, man. It is a great blessing to have people who, knowing you and your struggle, love you and stand with you. That hook in your heart - that obligation to protect them, is sometimes the only thing that holds us away from the brink - but it's strong and important and blessed, and worth fighting for. Hack away - fight the fight. And be a strength to others -
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ReplyDeleteI am 100% behind you and proud of your courage to stand up and fight. I hope that your sharing helps you and helps others. You have a naturally kind heart to nurture and help those around you. And you have a natural talent with words, to give them power. Those who distance themselves from you are missing out on a great friendship. You have incredible potential you have to do great things in this world. Onward and upward!
ReplyDeletethank you, I appreciate that a lot
DeleteBravo! Good for you! Keep going and you will find that peace and joy you are looking for. Just remember, we do not judge you, we love you and are proud of you for "slaying the beasts" in your life. We are all trying to do that and you are an example to all. We love you and support you! Auntie Elizabeth
ReplyDeleteThank you and I love you
ReplyDeleteI'm super proud that you're confronting your problems Brennan, I know how hard adversity with temptation can be. Maybe not with the same trials, but close enough in a way that I can understand. All I can say is that I totally believe that living a self-sufficient, clean lifestyle is the best way to defeat both depression and any temptations that you may have in your life. When you're physically fit and mentally sound, it's much easier to deal with any issue that may arise.
ReplyDeleteIt's funny, but I came to the odd conclusion that both anime and lifting help. It's weird to say, but I know that there are so many anime out there that have positive and uplifting takeaway messages, it would be a shame not to try it out when you're feeling down. Keep up the good work, and feel free to write me if you're ever looking for a friend,
Spencer Tuinei
Thanks a bunch man, I know you've had it hard too and the same goes to you, call me if you ever need anything. Haha it's very true though about both lifting and anime funnily enough. Keep up your own hard work bro
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ReplyDeleteDear Brennan: I read your blog first thing this morning. You have no idea how deeply it touched my heart. I have been too emotional today to respond until now. From time to time today I have wept. I wept but also felt relief. The corner has been turned. Please forgive the delay.
I think you know that I have known for many years that you were fighting your “demons”. You were so correct to understand that all of us fight our own demons. They may be different but we all fight and struggle our way through this life. No one should judge a brother or sister because no one knows what struggles are within someone else’s heart.
How my heart ached over the years as I watched your struggle. You are demonstrating the courage, bravery and honesty that has always been within you. Your leadership is strengthening and helping others right now. Our Heavenly Father sent His greatest children to earth at this time because He knows they are strong enough to overcome.
Brennan, I hope you know how much I love you. In my own way, I have tried to reach out but not intrude. You have been in my constant thoughts and prayers. Keep going!
Grandpa R.
I know you have known, and i"m sorry for the pain that I've caused, but thank you also for the support and love you have given me, I love you as well and no need to apologize for anything
Delete(From Alex and Tyler Rammell) We had the privilege of living in Provo for two years and getting to know your family better. I can't tell you how many times YOU brightened our days. You have such a good heart, always kind, loving, caring, funny! To name a few :) I'm not much older then you but admired your respect and roll you took as the older brother! And this just proves how strong you are and that you will win this fight. You are a wonderful example to your siblings. We want you to know as well that we love you and think the world of you. We truly miss you and your family so so much!! There is strength when you know people are praying for you and fighting with you...so lean on us so we can fight with you!!
ReplyDeleteThank you very much, I miss you guys too! Definitely need to visit haha in any case thank you and there will probably come a time when I will take you and everyone else on the offer to lean
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